It's so hard to describe all the emotions that are wrapped up in a second pregnancy. I can't decide if I'm more or less anxious this time around, given that I now know more about what to expect. However, I know it will all work out, and we can't wait to welcome our new little one into the world. As with Payton, we keep envisioning what it will be like the moment we lay eyes on our little girl, and we feel beyond blessed to be able to experience this again! In addition to being so excited, overjoyed, and grateful, there are parts of us that are a bit sad in thinking that Payton is no longer the "baby" of the family and that what we now know as our everyday"normal" is about to change. Also, it is SO hard to fathom that in a week, we are about to feel all of the love, cares, worries, etc. that we feel for Payton for another child. It's hard to imagine having that much love to give, but we know we will!
I always have to remind myself that God always give us the strength, peace, wisdom, and guidance that we need if we just turn to him. I read a blog recently about parenting and balancing multiple children, and one point that the author made that really stuck with me was how as a parent, we have to learn to trade our "doings" for His "doings". We need His patience, His joy, and His love. Trying to do all of this on our own without God is simply impossible, nor is it expected. Something that I have learned to really reflect on while parenting Payton and dealing with all the challenges and certain struggles is the fact that God loves her SO, SO much more than I ever could. Because of this, I know that He knows what's best for her, and by simply asking for His guidance and wisdom, or at times, just laying something completely at His feet, is more than enough to give me peace of mind that everything will work out!
Oh how we cannot wait to meet our new little girl within the next week and how exciting that my next post will include pictures of our new family of four!!
38 Weeks!
The "soon-to-be" Big Sister sporting her Minnie Mouse Halloween Costume!